Moving & In-vitro

Yes, both of these things almost happened last month and then neither of them did. Ryan's boss approached him with a potential job offer to go work for Donny Osmond in Vegas for what would be a pretty good raise working part time 36-weeks out of the year. It sounded like a cool opportunity and we were interested. A couple of days later we headed down to Vegas for Ryan to interview with Donny (yes we're on a first name basis now:)) The interview went well. The job was basically to be the backstage director of the show. I'm not very good at explaining all the details about the job but basically Donny told Ryan that he thought even though Ryan didn't have the specific training in that particular job that he could do it and would have 60 days to be trained by the person that was leaving. Donny wanted us to go to to the show that night and then meet with him and Marie afterwards. I wouldn't normallly go to Vegas and think hey, lets go see the Donny & Marie Osmond show, but it was actually a pretty fun show, although it did have its cheesy parts and we were the youngest people there. I kinda thought they might forget about us after the show, but right afterwards his manager came and grabbed us and took us backstage. So, Donny sits us down at a table and Marie comes over and meets us and starts telling me how much i will like living in Vegas and if we are lds and that sort of thing and meanwhile I hear Donny asking Ryan if he wants to take the job and if he can start on Tuesday, as in few days from then. We both gave him a deer in the headlights look and since we didn't really respond he said to let him know first thing in the morning. So, we go back to our hotel room in total shock. Neither of us thought we would have to be making a life changing decision so quickly and to potentially have Ryan move in a few days. We were totally stressed out to say the least. For anyone who knows me, decisions are not my strong suit. I have a hard time deciding what to order at restraunts. As scary and as big of a descision as it was we decided that if the pay was right it would be too good of an opportunity not to take. We left Vegas the next morning thinking this place was going to be our new home. Then the negotioations started, the first amount offered was a lot lower than we had been originally been told so we asked for a lot higher number and then waited and waited to hear back.

Now admist all this going on we had been going thru our fertility issues. I haven't said really anything about on this blog so far, I don't know why, lots of reasons I guess, its so emotional, didn't know what to say, have too much to say, don't know if the blog is the right place to say it, but this this is our life and if you're reading my blog I assume you are interested in my life and this has been a huge part of our lives for the past few years and I think its the hardest thing i've had to deal with in my life. But since this blog is already too long I'm going to try and keep it short. This same week we were in the process of taking a bunch of fertiltiy meds and shots in preparation of doing a souped up version of artificial insemination. We got back from Vegas about 1am in the morning and woke up the next day (Sat) to go to our dr. appt. At the appt we found out that the meds had been working too well, which is good and bad, good because it is good that my body responded well to it and bad b/c they wouldn't do the procedure b/c of too high a risk of multiples, but said we could transfer to doing in-vitro. So, now in the middle of trying too figure out possibly taking a new job and moving we have to decide if we want to pay a lot, lot of money to do in-vitro. Long story short, we decided to do it but it turned that I ovulated that night on my own so when we went to the next appointment they said it wouldn't be worth it to retrieve the few eggs that hadn't ovulated yet and thankfully got a refund of most of our money.

That same day the job offered Ryan pretty close to what we had asked for. So, he took the job. and was off to Vegas the next morning. We had a tearful goodbye (on my part) at the airport as it felt like a good bye to our life as we had known it so far. But, as it turned out the guy that was going to train him was leaving at the end of the week so instead of 2 months it was only going to be 4 days, not nearly enough time for Ryan to be able to take over running of the show. Ryan and the manager mutually decided that it was not going to be enough time for Ryan to be trained for the job. They treated him well, limo ride to the airport, compensation for his time. We are both glad that we at least tried it or else we would have always wondered what if..

So, for a minute we thought we were going to have this crazy cool life changing job and a baby but alas life is just back to normal for us. But I have to say that it was definitly a growing and bonding experience for both of us. I got a glimpse of why people say they are thankful for their trials which I have understood in theory but not in practice before this. I still can't say that I am really thankful for any of the trials i've had but i think this experience although hard and stressful was something that we needed to go through. We also realized how lucky we are to have really great friends and family that we can talk to and who are so supportive and great! So, thanks for all those who were praying for us, we really appreciate it and we still need those prayers!